All day feels like the middle of the night, on a day not too far

I had some friends over yesterday. Audrey couldn't go, Adam couldn't go causing Amanda to not go, and Jesse, Marie, Mike and Danielle made it over. The day started out fine, but as it was winding down, I felt like it was three weeks ago. My parents had been fighting, and I would later learn that child services was preparing for a visit. I walked out of the house, even smiling to my father. Phones were ringing along town, myself asking for someone to help me, someone to understand. I wandered to the computer at my grandparents, looking for someone online who understood what was going on.I got Adam. Two weeks or so later, I had just finished school. It didn't seem to be bothering me that I had so much going on. Then child services came, things went wrong, but I stayed the strongest of all. I knew how he was. I knew he couldn't handle real situations where horrible things happen, but I called back. Earlier Amanda and I had called, myself slowly crying. She says she hadn't known then that I feel for him, so, why call?I feel like I need someone here sometimes. And I don't know what to do with Jesse, or with Amanda, or what to tell Audrey. Amanda should be asking him out today. But I still feel like it's the middle of the night, and I've only wanted his happiness. I'm only second to myself, so, where are you? Any of you?